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To Phish or Be Phished

I was recently phished, as the title implies, and while I did not lose anything, it leaves me to wonder why there is so much phishing in the world. I guess it’s a good way to make ends meet. So there it is: To Be Phished is the way of life.

I see websites which post helpful content get more views, but I kind of like putting down whatever scribbles or thoughts I have on here. I mostly think about personality and pseudo personality tests (Myers Briggs among other tests.) What fun they are! I really enjoy such studies, even if I find the results on personality perplexing. I think humanity’s attempts to understand herself can go to extremes, but at least this set of tests seems benign.

I think I am a scholarly and thoughtful person, who is somewhat traditional but open to new things. I feel like a lot of what I do could be described in the evil category, though there is supposed to be more good than evil in the world?

It’s either personality or looking at Wikipedia articles on either pop culture or personal definition. Either way, I think the world is better for the internet as our curiosity drives us forward to new worlds.

I was watching Star Trek recently, which I guess could alter my writing.

I’m sure there’s some feelings like “ugh” which could be used to describe my writing. I’d like to make a banned story reaction character, but the website no longer exists in the form I’m used to, so I’ll just have to describe her.

“Ugh” face, black sunflower hair, tanned skin, pink dress or bathrobe, level 5 adventurer. No weapon equipped.

I miss the free fun that was had when I was young, though I’m sure there’s still much out there that I don’t know about.

Back to video games I go…

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Places I’ve been to and am at

I guess I’ve seen a lot around the world. I don’t know if I’d like to travel more or less, but from what I have seen, the world is a remarkable and nice place. I’m sure I should be more concerned, but I’m just not. No names or faces in this post: only what was and talking a little bit.

Even though I complain a lot about life, sometimes it is really nice.

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A Lot Of Accounts

I have a lot of internet accounts and tons of emails and such… I don’t know what to do about all this. I feel like I’m horribly balanced, and I don’t know if I could ever be better. In other news, I threw some sharp things at a target today with more to come… They say August is the most common month to vacation. This remains true!

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Summertime and What to Do

I just went for a walk outside and the weather is so moist and humid, it builds up with electricity and then pours quickly and without warning. It’s no wonder this area is known for its coast for the air ripples with the masculine (yea i said that) potential of a son. Even still, there’s more delicacy than most (including myself) are comfortable with. I was thinking about how I live and even sleep, and about how I currently live in a Western style while I am from an Eastern civilization. Parts of me long to return to such a life, despite rumors of sickness, lack of representation and disease, if not for the fact that I blend in enough to say it’s my home. I don’t know if I should stay this way (hating and full of negative tones and remarks). Maybe I’ll end up getting sent to an even worse, more desolate and vermin filled area, with age and longer times of waiting between events.

And fat people.

So what to do while I await the day I suddenly panic and die? Who knows. Maybe I’ll be someone who find an occupation, or maybe I’ll just stay insulted and a minority for my entire life, never to break out of the “Asian Ghetto” or whatever you call where (and how) I live. Typecast for life. I guess I shouldn’t worry too much about it. Most of the time I am already a part of the masses, unacknowledged and with someone else in the limelight. I’ll just go back to playing Minecraft.

In the meanwhile: what to do about all these comments? Who knows.

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this month

last month was glad month

jk last month was pride month but bear with me here

this month is sad month

This is why i said the month was sad
I want someone to go with me >.<

Honestly idk what else to post on here. I’m still not a good person. Ugliness from the inside, cheap goods, old news and uncool, etc etc. I spent about <5 hours on social media and have gained nothing from it. What dooooo ? note: lazy and easy answers only plz i’m real tired of being rejected flat out or being met by other (as my mom put it) crazy ex girlfriends (including me as an ex girlfriend). :/ she even described me as calm :/ Mom Problems (alas)

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Beach and July

Hype for July, it’s a great month. Sunny, hot, and filled with mosquitos. My mom is trying to convince me to play sports with her but I’ve dedicated myself to doing things like blogging instead.

Trying to upload videos but it’s not going right now. I might forget to update, but it’s essentially firework footage. Tomorrow should be a good day for more fireworks to go off too.

My mom said I have no self control. This is true and a common problem to have, I think. I feel somewhat bothered by being a dangerous person who probably would live outside in a poor trash infested hole, but whatever I guess. Trying to put the videos up right now.

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cuphead

cuphead is so incredibly hard so immensely difficult such a pain but it’s soooo fun uggggh. i’m a little cup… a small cup… i want to win against this robot guy. (playing dr kahl’s robot rn) and the delicious last course is fun af too… so hard… *dies* so many deaths in game… i’m tryin to get all the items too (lol hidden coins ftw). so hard. will play again.

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Flawless

For a long time I desired to be somewhat perfect and still do; I often find you are limited based on things outside of your control, and while that makes me a loser or uncool, I hope feeling this way is still understood and accepted by others. One time I invited a classmate over and she accepted. While she was over I was asking if I should consider myself one way or another and she responded that I’m probably less accepted than I think I am. While it was a taste of humble pie, I’m glad for the experience, as it was a somewhat true answer to who I am.

all stories aside, I feel somewhat disheartened by where I stand in the world, even seen by people who care about me. Maybe the daily violence and lateness experienced is somewhat earned.

Even though I am uncertain, I’ll post this writing anyway. Maybe I’ll spend this time (since I have little to do in the next week) going through my comments again? Most people say things like that are a fools errand or impossible task, yet I want to make it through anyway. I’m worried I’ll mark some things which are meant to be ”correctly submitted” wrongly and other ”incorrect answers” as right, or that I’ll end up insulting someone who I like again, but whatever happens when I choose what to publish, I will do it with certainty

best.
jacklyn

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Life recently

“Wow this is soooo serious hahaha u should feel good abt the unwanted male attention bc beingg solicited for sex is exactly what everyonr wwnts in their early teens!! being a loli or a harem protaganist is nothing to be ashamed of :)” god im so short and fat and ugly 🙁 self hatred :< if i was a dog i’d get sent to the pound and die or something :v

my guitar broke somehow

Broke guitar

And some dude messaged me (again for some reason) abt being a submissive girl and doing dates or sex favors or something just bc be could 🙁 and now all these sex bots and porn sites like have my info and email probably as revenge for being a shitty person 🙁 lol i remember it was a way to troll and get revenge on dumbass noobs and new members u would meet 🙁

i should just give up on this whole thing. my parents don’t really like me and all my friends either moved on or think i’m the scum of the earth. what a great way to continue being an unloved piece of shit. I’m sure when i was a kid i was this fat, hatable and ugly as well.

i keep googling stuff like ”when is the world going to end” but i never get a concrete date and all these doomsday people are too into actually dying. like i’m just looking for a long term thing here i guess. i feel bad being over fifteen bc i’m no longer the ideal age to be groomed and harassed while also being cute, sexy, and somewhat fantasy/wish fulfilling. like congrats on never making it to the manga or manhua and becoming the world’s most erotic xxx or whatever.

Why did i spend all my teens either reading erotica or doing irl stuff? idk

Yo my grandma is so old snd my brothers (all of them) have graduated high school and i graduated and my cousin graduated college (masters) and my brother graduated college (bachelors) and this means i’m about to not see any of the family i gree up with for months at a time while they try to make the right connections and stay globally active so i’m kind of sad. but on the bright side i’ll have time to work and become close with my uncle kind of of so i won’t be totally rudderless? man life really does get u down.

on twitter some guy got massively pissed i didn’t go bar hopping with him one night. like idk what he expected with lines like ”you’re prettier than my ex girlfriend” and a really disheveled photo and like no redeeming qualities or interest in me as a person? like he kind of just saw me as a girl to meet online and then fulfill his desire with? like i don’t want to be a geographic target 🙁 i’m a writer i like a lot of jokes mystery bullshit , i like museums and picnics and science, i think drinking culture is stupid but i like cigars smoking and some drugs 🙁 🙁 🙁 and i like nice houses and well thrown house parties 🙁 but like soon i’m going to be like one of n those hyper aggressive ugly spinsters who are like ”why don’t i have any men” cause she didn’t ever feel happy abt herself. and like i’ll be crabby like that witch from disney who poisoned snow white’s apple cause she was mean and toxic inside 🙁

idk i just wanna hold hands but if i tried like i think it wouldn’t really work out ;( a lot of people are dead and i’m personally filled with problems 🙁 oh brb im being asked by my grandma for cash money.

MY MOM JUST TOLD ME NOT TO GO TO AN ATM LIKE DON’T DATE DONT GO TO ATMS DONT SMILE DONT TALJ LIKE FUAKKKKKKKKKKK I CAN’T HANDLE THIS AMOUNT OF IMPOSED RULES ALL THE SPANIRDS WERE RIGHR WHEN THEH STOLE ALL THE GOLD FROM AMERICA AND KILLED ALL THE PEOPLE LIVING HERE !!!! THIS IS UCH BULLSBIT!!!!! WHEN THST GERMAN KAISER SHOWED UP AND KILLED ALL THOSE PEOPLE INDISCRIMINATELY IT WAS OK!!! AGGGGGGGH i hate losing wars again: if i was a dog i’d get sent to the pound | i’d live in a kennel | i was gonna say what my brother does for work but i feel liek im not smart enough to say that 🙁 life is bad

stay woke, boyos (no girls mentioned cause we’re no longer people with unalienable rights)
stay woke, boyos (no girls mentioned cause we’re no longer people with unalienable rights)

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found some dudes on discord and joined their rust party. very fun! my writing sounds so ragey when read out loud.